Okay. Last post, then I have to get ready to see the county T.

I got to talk to the advocate this morning. I emailed her over the weekend asking for advice/support and if she can get me the letter, picture, and object my T promised me. She talked to me for about 20mins. She said she would try to get me the letter. She's actually starting the grievance process today (she just got my signed consents today), so she'll put in a request for the letter since it's supposed to be in my file. As for the picture, she told me go on social media and take all the pictures I want. It's public knowledge, so it's not stealing...lol. She told me that even if she asks, my T won't give me the object. So she asked me to say one word that describes the healthy part of my relationship with my T. I said teacher. She asked me to say the first symbol that came to mind of a teacher. I said apple. She told me to have my fiance go out and buy me an apple (not a real apple, but an object shaped as an apple or desig ed with apples). She said I will still have an object that reminds me of my T, and it will be given to me by someone who is still in my life. I told my fiance already, and he likes the idea too.

And, I didn't mention that you all told me too, but her first words of advice was to go to the beach

She told me to call her Wednesday and update her on how my appt with county T goes today. She also said that I can look to her for support and advice through this process.

I'm so grateful, but it's also sad that I am receiving so much support and encouragement from people who barely know me...so much more than a woman who knew the ins and outs of my being.

Thank you all