Well, both thoughts equally disturb me, I don't care if he's gay-- but the fact that he's married to a woman right now and that he might be gay (and maybe cheating, or worse yet, suppressing it the way I do) is something I find disturbing on several levels, one because of the whole hypothetical infidelity scenario, two because if I'm 27 and he's 54, then that means I might have a very long, rough road ahead of me, because if someone his age can't conquer the same problem after years of maturation I'm going to be in a whole new world of hurt all my own in the years to come.