All of it. I hate everything about bipolar.

Things I hate the most:
All the ruined relationships because I couldn't keep myself well. Sleeping around, the drugs, the alcohol. All the people I've hurt because I'm a horrible person when I'm hypo/manic.

The times when I know I'm losing control and I'm too careless to do anything about it.

Feeling like I'm treading on eggshells because my every move is being watched 'cause I'm "crazy".

The meds. The meds that I can't live with/ live without.

Finally, the irritation that THOSE moods bring.