Bipolar is a very difficult and disabling illness when you are treated and trying to live you life without help. Can I ask if you are on meds of any kind, or if you are seeing a psyciatrist? Those would be some helpful steps of getting your life on track. There are also a lot of therapies that can assist in recognizing the behaviors and altering your patterns of impulsivity.

We do have a support chat for bipolar as well. Once you reach your 5 posts you will be able to enter chat. You may stop by and kind of bounce ideas of other members with bipolar disorder. You maybe can learn a little bit or help someone with your experiences.

I Wish you the best of luck in this journey and how you are able to find peace, and stability.