This might be long. I've gotta get this stuff off my chest.

Most of you know that I've been in a new relationship for the past two and a half months. It started off soo hot and heavy....we waited like a week to have sex lol. Before we went all the way, we had some amazing make-out sessions......

I had a lot of work to do on my past sex life before I was comfortable having sex with him. In the past, my relationships would start off with sex and then before long, I didn't want it anymore. I never really enjoyed sex and the men got really frustrated with that, which made me think that was all I was good for.

I didn't want that to happen in this relationship, because I was falling in love with the guy, so I worked through all that.

Now the exact opposite is happening!!!!! I LOVE sex with my boyfriend, but now HE'S the one who doesn't seem to want it....we haven't been intimate in like 2 weeks.

This brings up all kinds of insecurities for me. We talked about it a little bit on Sunday. I said I felt like he was getting bored with me. He assured me that's not true and felt terrible that I was feeling that. I'm learning to understand A.D.D which he has really bad. The tv is always on and he's constantly flipping channels on commercials, so I always feel like there's always something on TV and sex would interrupt that, so I never feel like I should initiate anything.

I said something about the passion dying, and he said there's been health issues, which is true. A lot of times, my MS is flairing up, or his asthma. But there are plenty of times when we're both ok....and nothing happens.

My fear here is, I don't want to make him feel like I felt in the past. I don't want him to feel like all I want is sex, and that if he doesn't give it me, that I'm gonna get frustrated.

The tables have completely turned. I love sex with him and want it.....and see my old behavior with sex in him....so I'm afraid he doesn't want it with me, like I didn't want it with my past boyfriends.

I know a lot of this is irrational fear and I'll work through that with my sponsor, and I plan on talking to him about it more, but this is touchy stuff that I don't want to discuss while a baseball game might distract him.

He's a wonderful wonderful man, and I know that if I talked to him about all this stuff, he wouldn't get defensive and turn it into a fight. I guess I just don't want to seem too needy or sexually charged.....

What a crazy turn of events.....the woman who always hated sex finds someone she loves it with......and he's not like all the other guys and doens't need it all the time.

Why is this happening? Is it just the normal relationship changes? I had really hoped we'd be able to keep it new and fresh and passionate. Its not looking like that though......

I love him so much. I need to just move into acceptance that these kinds of changes are normal. But before I can move into acceptance, I had to share it.

Ahhhh thanks for letting me go on.......