I wouldn't feel guilty - its only natural to notice the difference in how you were treated as opposed to your brother. I'm a firm believer in communication and truth because the lack of it just eventually leads to a pile of crap no one can sort out. If I were you I would ask your mom, try to bring it up in a non-confontrational way and see where it goes. She should be open to talking with you about it. I guess I could stand as an example of what happens without communication but a lot of it was because my mother would never admit there was a difference in how she felt toward her children. My brother could do no wrong whereas i could do no right. i wish she was here to get answers because they keep building in my head - I can't get answers from her because she's dead so I need to find them somewhere else just not sure where. Carpe Diem, seize the day, nothing is ever gained by lack of communication especially when its someone who it stands to reason it is their responsibility to connect with you. you have a right to answers. of course, like my mom, you can't force her to talk if she won't. But maybe that won't be the case. Take the first, easiest, most uncomplicated way toward a solution maybe you won't ever have to get to the hard solutions.