Hi Macd123

I am really sorry to hear that you are in so much pain and have been hurt.

"So do I say goodbye to my emotions and play dead for what's left of this journey - this outcome is as probable as any."

Please don't choose this as an option.

I know it may appear as a desirable one right now.

But it won't serve you well.

So I am glad that you have asked.

I'd like to give you some other choices to consider in lieue of this one.

Please can you take some time to read this:

Coping with the End of a Relationship | World of Psychology

Surviving Your Breakup | Psych Central