(((AnxiousSadGirl)))

It's really hard.

I am so sorry that you are grieving.

You have suffered significant losses in your life and I am really sorry to hear of the passing of your greatgrandmother and your cousins grandma.

I was really close to my greatgrandmother and my grandmother.

It's a struggle when they pass it really is.

I think that when we grieve we go through different stages of grieving and it can be hard and painful.

And we process things differently.

I can understand how you were in shock.

It's really hard.

I know too well that feeling of expecting our loved ones who have passed to walk through the door. It's hard accepting that they are gone.

I am really sorry to hear that you are afraid of crying in therapy.

I have cried many times in therapy myself.

You have every right to feel upset - even if this very special lady was not technically your grandma, she is a very important person to you.

We go through many stages in the grieving process.

There really is no right or wrong way to grieve.

Please allow yourself this process.

There is an article here on Psych Central.

I hope that this may be able to help you.

The 5 Stages of Loss and Grief | Psych Central

There are also different support groups - you may like to have a look here -

Psych Central: Grief and Loss: Support Groups

Grief, Healing and the One-to-Two Year Myth | Psych Central

I think you are showing a lot of bereavement symptoms.

This is really hard.

Please forgive yourself.

Bereavement Symptoms | Psych Central

The Two Worlds of Grief and Depression | World of Psychology