I am with you posters. I act much more bossy and angry at home. Its like it festers inside all day and then i blow.

It is directed towards kids, dogs, inanimate objects, myself.

I hit my son this last manic period. I am so ashamed. I just lost it. He is 18 and 6'6'' 180lbs. I couldn't get him to get out of bed and go to school. He is a senior. He said "efff you and leave me alone". I told him if he didn't stop cussing, I would punch him. He said "go away *****," so i punched him in his leg ( he was laying down.)

I know I didn't hurt anything but his self-esteem. I have slapped my kids maybe 5 times in their lives total and it was when they were toddlers. I have never hurt them since.

Then.....mania happened and i lost my self-control. I am acting *****y, so my kids act *****y. It is a vicious cycle.

I was very wrong and have since apologize. He brings it up every day now. (it was maybe a week ago.0

A single mentally ill mom , with 2 teenage boys. Not easy.