And thankfully managed to speak to and get an appointment with my psychiatrist for tomorrow as she had a cancellation.

She said that she's concerned with my behavior and depending on seeing me tomorrow will most likely up my lithium and also introduce quetiapine (?) to my meds.

A little relieved but at the same time it's taking all my restraint to keep myself in check. Trying to not go out at the moment because it's a real struggle just not to go off the deep end. Go out and blow all the money I don't have to get smashed out of my face on whatever poison takes my fancy. Ugh.