I am still struggling with events and things and yesterday I stopped at the store and got some supposedly dietary ice cream. It still wasn't good for me so today I threw it out. It really hurt my feelings though as I know I was going against my conscience and what was really good for me. I am lactose intolerant and struggle with food in many ways. I am trying to turn things around so this was a bad choice for me. Now I have to recover physically and emotionally. It is so hard to keep focused and not give in to what for me is a foolish whim. I hope it is a hard lesson learned and I can move on.