In October of 2013, when I was 18, I was in a car accident.

The car accident didn't seem that bad. The other guy had a dent in his bender but my car was totaled. The car wouldn't start, you could no longer open the passenger door. In the accident my glasses flew off my face and I slid into the dash and my seat belt. I had bruises under my breasts from the seat belt and on my knees from them hitting the dashboard. I suffered from whiplash severe enough I was in physiotherapy for 6 months. The last 6 weeks I was going 5 times a week 4 hours a day.

I left physio pain free and at the time I was 19 so I just assumed I was all better and it would never affect me ever again. It was in my past. But I was so wrong. Within 2 months of leaving physio therapy the pain was back and with a VENGEANCE! Mowing the lawn would put my back out and I'd be in bed unable to move for a week. This went on for some time.

For some reason things started to get better and I wasn't experiencing any pain. It lasted 2 or 3 weeks but then the pain came back. The pain started getting worse. Not just in my pain but radiating into my legs and arms. My legs would go numb sometimes.

I've been on an anti inflammatory and it does some to relieve the pain but if I forget to take it the pain is excruciating. Bit some other days the pain is excruciating for no reason. Like today. I call them bad pain days. I don't know what anyone calls them.

I honestly don't know if this is chronic pain or not but I am almost always in some type of pain and over exerting myself even slightly results in hours and up to a week in excruciating pain.

I'm only 20 yrs old and I can't even work. I think I'm falling into a depression caused by this and I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I tell everyone I'm fine and I lie about how much pain I'm in and try to hide the pain by just asking to sit for a second or lie down for a second and get up way too soon because I don't want them to know how much I'm actually suffering. I almost resent everyone in my life for being able to do the things I can't and I hate myself for taking it all for granted. I see my boyfriend do what he wants while I'm curled up in a ball and I'm just mad and I don't understand.

I know most of you know better than me and I really need advice because this is the first time I've ever experienced something no one in my life can relate to and it's driving me insane.