Hello,

My name is Nina. I'm 33 yrs old, a wife and mother of 4 children, only 3 live at home.
I've always thought there was something wrong with me mentally but what has always been a question I've kept to myself, for far too long now. I have numerous symptoms, some of which consumes me, controls me, swallows me whole. I can't be a normal, happy, energetic mother I always dreamed of being. I can't seem to keep relationships with people. So much so it's destroyed any hope of any friendships.
There are many symptoms that goes along with my inability to have any social relationships for example, severe ups and downs, severe outbursts of anger and irritability. Temper outbursts, feelings of everyone hates me, dislikes me, is talking about me. I feel so down probably 4 to 5 days out of the week. I won't eat, all I want to do is sleep. I won't even care if I bathe or not. What is wrong with me? I need answers and help if I'm ever gonna live a half normal life. I want this not only for myself but for my family that I do love so much.
Any opinions, suggestions and/or conversation would help greatly. What should I do next to help myself???