i cant say i fully understand what you are going thru because of other mental health issue prevent me from forming strong emotional attachments and when people go away, it doesnt bother me. but i have had many friends go away without explanation and it has bothered me to an extend wondering what i did. i reconnected with several good highschool friends and there was such excitement and suddenly nothing. i did have one friend who cared to explain to me once in her frustration. she told me i exhausted her. i never forgot that. the frustration in her voice. i overwhelm people. just TMI, overload when I am cycling. one guy friend i had was exasperated saying he didnt know whether he had to call the police to do a welfare check on me and that was an unfair position to put him in. i just dont know how to edit. it is easier not to be my friend. i freak people out. so it could be something like this, maybe?