Hi 8888an8888,
Hey, you'll still be you, you'll still be a great person whatever. You're still there underneath all of this. And it definitely shows as well in your strength through everything
But the urges, they can be so overwhelming, right??
Distraction is a good idea.........maybe you could schedule in things that are going to keep you occupied regardless of how you're feeling to try to "head off" those urges coming as much??
And the coping skills that drain away when you're feeling bad..........do you think there's any way you could spot any subtler signs that say you're "slipping" and get in with those coping skills a bit sooner. I know sometimes everything can just take over you.......but just a thought.
Still, you have some coping skills which is a great start.........and maybe a basis to work on some more??
And perhaps write a list of things (and thoughts??!!) that help just a little when things get hard, because it can be so hard to remember some of those things sometimes, when all you really want to do is..........and then maybe try to force yourself to really attend to some of those things on your list if you need to???
Again, none of that's guarenteed to work of course.........but just remember you're still you, there's a lot more to you than the urges, than...........so you make sure you still value those parts, because we value you regardless!!!

Alison