I am sorry to hear that you are struggling lifelies.

I have found some articles here on Psych Central that you may wish to read through -

Strategies for Overcoming Depression | Psych Central

Strategies for Improving the Cognitive Symptoms of Depression | Psych Central

Top 10 Lesser-Known Self-Help Strategies for Anxiety | Psych Central

I hope that you might be able to find a strategy that is useful to you.

Be well.