I have been diagnosed bipolar for about 5 years I think. I have been highly successful in past careers. I have been married 10 years and have two beautiful daughters. I have had issues with depression and mania. The worst was a couple years ago... I was working in public safety. I made great money and had amazing benefits. One day my husband was offered a promotion, but we would have to relocate. I jumped at the opportunity! I quit my amazing job, sold our house and moved. Things went bad FAST! I somehow spent all our money from the sale of the house... 20,000.00 I can't be real sure where it all went. I decided to go to beauty school. I thought it was very clearly the best thing for me to do... I have no idea why... Because I wanted to 15 years ago... My husband's job went bad and we ended up moving home. We lost our nice vehicles, had to file bankruptcy. Many times I wanted to quit school, but my husband continued to support me. I did end up finishing school, but now I hate working! I am nervous all the time. I hate to just sit at home. I am restless but I have no idea what to do about it. I hate to give up on the beauty industry already given how much time and money we have spent. Is this a issue with Bipolar? Is it normal for someone with bipolar to feel so conflicted? Take something you were so good at and throw it away, then be dead set something else was such a great idea only to end up hating it later? I feel like I can not make any decisions right now because I will only hate the outcome or realize how wrong I was in the decisions I have made. How can I be a good example for my kids if I can't stick to anything. Has anyone else felt this way? What did you do?
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