While in the shower, I drank tons of water all at once (because God told me to) and then vomited it back up believing I was vomiting evil spirits. Then I shook uncontrollably thinking that I was possessed and The Lord was casting out an evil spirit. I just kept chanting "Lord, take this fear from me." Later, my back burned and my hands smelled like urine. These were hallucinations but I believed the burning on my back was from demons scratching their way out and the smell of urine was the smell the demons left behind.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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