I think I was preoccupied with it while I learned about it, but certainly not crushed. Now it is just one of the things I know about myself that I have to manage (among other things). I wouldn't say it at all dominates my life at this point. It did for a few years while I was pretty unstable and learning to manage, but now that I'm pretty stable, it isn't something I spend a great deal of time thinking about. It is actually a small aspect of who I am.