Trying to stay calm. None of this is easy for me

I did some deep breathing, crying on my fiance, cuddling with dogs, Ativan, and chocolate covered blueberries.

I looked up more on the new T. She's trained in ethics. I guess that's a plus. She's in her late 50's and is a widow Looks like she has 2 sons. I found a picture of her at a party showing way too much cleavage. She also needs to be careful of the information that's out there on her. I found her current and last home address and phone number. I will be telling her about that if I continue to see her. It's one thing to find general info, but I shouldn't have been able to find addresses and phone numbers within the first page of a simple google search.

But nothing I found helps me. Like, she got a degree in religious studies. That could be great to help me in the future, bad if she's judgemental, or it might not mean a thing. Same with the picture of her at a party. It's her life, and she is single. I doubt she'll show up to work looking like that.

Someone needs to create a "match.com" to help match clients to therapist