today i told my best friend everything. she was really scared for me and told me i had to stop. she just doesn't get that i can't just stop like that. that it takes a lot of time. afterwards i didn't feel good at all. i had a terrible feeling in my stomach, and thought about how much i really shouldn't have told her. i also made her promise not to tell anyone, which i'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. so now i don't know what's going to happen. i want help more than ever, but i know telling my mom or sister would be the hardest thing ever. i just can't do it. i'm lost and confused and need someone that understands. please help me.