I've been hospitalized voluntarily three times. The first time was because I was destroying the house smashing everything and could not control my rage and was being abusive. I was pounding enough whiskey to kill a horse and arrived at the hospital sobbing and hallucinating. The place I arrived at had no beds so I had to wait overnight to be transported to a horrible facility where patient neglect was happening. The second time it was because I was manic and couldn't take it anymore. I was plagued with thoughts of going away to a resort and couldn't get the thoughts out of my head. I was crying constantly because I knew I would not be able to live out my grandiose plans. I ended up losing my job because of this. The third most recent time was because I was ranting and yelling for days and acting violent. Luckily each time I've had enough insight to know I needed help. Basically whenever I'm having strong SI I know I need to go. I hope to never go back but realistically it will probably happen again.