Hi scaredandstuffed

This is my personal opinion.

My personal opinion is based on the fact that I personally understand what it is to have hypomanic/(manic) episodes and reflect on behaviours that were not useful to us during an extreme episode.

What I would like to say is this.

We all have choices.

We are free to decide which choices we make.

Unfortunately during a hypo/manic episode our judgment can be severely affected.

We are never free from the consequence of these choices.

The first step towards CHANGE is to acknowledge that a problem exists.

We can not change if we do not accept what needs to change.

So.

I want to say.

Congratulations.

You've already begun this process of change.

You are well aware of choices you made whilst hypo and are reflecting on these choices that did not serve in your best interest.

You wish to change.

Sure.

You could have another hypo episode indeed.

But.

Next time round you are aware that if you make the same choices you will suffer the consequences.

And you have worked with your T through some issues.

This helps.

Also, you will be able to put in safety measure to eliminate some bad choices next time round.

Yes you will experience increased libido again. This just happens. You were impulsive your last episode and followed your basic instincts. That choice does not have to be repeated as you already acknowledge you would like this changed. Next time you will have safety measures in place as you are aware that there are other means of satisfying your libido whilst hyp other than cheating on your partner.

I am proud of you.

Congratulations.

You have begun the process of CHANGE.