I don't believe that meds will save me.

Like almost every other person here, I can relate to the years of regrets, the wasted chances of getting help because I felt I didn't need it.

I'm not a bad person. Neither are you. We're afflicted with balances in our brain being off and we react differently to the 'norm'.

A doctor may help heal you with medication . A councillor can help you through words and positive actions but only you can save yourself.

You sound like you're on the right track. Keep moving onwards!