I've stayed in bed. I've worn same clothes and even slept in them for last four days and couldn't care less. I want nothing to do with my friends nor my regular activities. I'm uneasy I gave up the pills. Between bouts of high anxiety, I cry and sleep. I've self harmed.ive been impulsive. They say I'm high risk.

It's beautiful outside and I wish it was dark and raining like I feel. I see T tomorrow and hope I can say with honesty I feel better.

I think of darkness and wish for light. I try new coping skills but it's hard to even do them. Am I alone or do talk understand this?