It is true, it's hard to get in to see a pdoc because they're in high demand. Unfortunately, the waiting list is long.
If worse comes to worse and you feel like you are a danger to your self or others or cause self harm, contact a crisis center or go to the ER. You'll get a psych eval and then possibly a commitment which will put you right there in front of a pdoc. Hang in there honey and don't give up! Your seeking help, don't quit now! We're behind you 110%.