I've learned that a lot of the time people do not and will not allow themselves to try to understand SI. I've been cutting for almost 15 years so I know the whole lack of understanding bit from others. I know that your friend is very worried about you, but I think that she can be a bit more understanding. That's my opinion. I think by telling others you may get the same reaction you got from your friend. That is their way of coping. Like my bf, he can't handle the fact that I do have this problem. He said he'd break up with me if I did cut, so I know how hard this must be for you.

My cutting is my one true addiction...like an alcoholic you just can't stop. It calls your name...calls your soul. There seems to be nothing more precious than cutting or whatever your form of SI. In the darkest hours there is the comfort of SI. I know that feeling more than anything.

I'm trying not to cut these days. I could lose someone I really care about over it. I'm here if you need someone who's been there...and back.