I'll be going along in my day pretty much a okay and then therapy comes. I almost always have things to talk about (especially being depressed lately), but I feel worse after leaving sometimes. Today is one of them. On a scale from 1 to 10 (1 been barely depressed to 10 being extremly), I was about a 5 or 6 before therapy and now am about an 8 or 9. I feel so hopeless. My depression is consuming me and yet I'm still meant to function. There is no solution to my lonliness and stress. My therapist didn't know what to say either. She thinks I rely on people too much. I'm just an extrovert and being alone is 1,000 times harder when I'm already depressed. There's no answer. There's no hope. I feel like absolute **** right now. I just want to give everything up.
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Bipolar II and Borderline Personality Disorder
Meds: Lamictal 150mg | Latuda 40mg |
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