Bare with me I'm a bit all oer the plce right now. Been thinking a lot about findin new T. Current T too easy on me and I can easily manipulate I to speaking of nothing of any importance. Saw Pdoc and meds got changed. Coming off lexapro added Zoloft and about to dbl that. Wellbutrin same.

For the first time in a while I got up and outta bed very fast this morning. Made coffee and served to wife in bed. Left before sun got up and did more than a days worth of work in a matter of a few hrs. I was just go go go keep on chugging. My eyes feel very tired but my body is still go go. I am extremely irritable and anger very quickly. Like this dude was coming up on me in my tail and I'm already goin 25 over all I want to do is slam on the brakes and jut let it be but I don't and get over when I can and I just am so angry I just yell and give them the finger. This is becoming increasingly common and it's not so great cuz lately ppl been getting killed for it.

I also am upset to say urges of SI have been answered and I just give in so easily. Nothing super bad but it's enough to make me upset with myself for allowin it to happen. I don't even kno y it just does. I kno my anxiety was getting bad coming off lexapro Pdoc then added the Zoloft. It's hard to concentrate right now and I really don't even know what I'm saying or what I want from this.