Have felt like this many times but it will pass-some days are harder than others. It sucks & I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time-keep posting & checking in so we know how you're doing-hope your appointment goes well-take care
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"This is just a moment in time. Step aside and let it happen."-Inara from Firefly 
Bipolar Disorder
Depression
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
OCD
PTSD
Insomnia
Chronic Pain
Prozac 30mg daily
Buspar 10mg three times daily
Propranolol 10mg three times daily
Currently titrating up Lamictal daily
Ambien 5mg prn
Trazodone 50mg prn