... if he was always an asshole. If he was always mean and angry and violent. It would be easier if I didn't see him as a broken human being. It would be easier if I could hate him completely.

... if I didn't feel it in my body. If I could just say it was an overactive imagination. If I could say I was making up stories and believe it was all just a bad dream.

... if it never happened. If there was nothing to remember.

:/