I had a mother for the first 13 years of my life, on and off, but not for the last 35. I never miss her cause in many ways she was never there for me anyway but I do miss that I received so little parenting in general overall. When I look at my adult daughter now she is so precious to me and I love to just hug her to death. It isn't everything but it would have been wonderful to have the experience, even once, of being precious to someone. So I can really empathize with your feeling!