Hi Jbeach, welcome to PC.

Feel free to vent here anytime you want. I find it very helpful. Do you see a therapist or anything? I know you said money is tight, but if you don't have insurance there are often places that go on a sliding scale fee, if it's something you would be interested in.

As for your husband, have you ever tried talking to him? I often feel like I'm burdening my friends, and they say that I'm not. I don't know if I believe them sometimes because they barely reply, but then they say they just feel sad and don't know what to say/do to help me. Maybe your husband would at least be there to listen and try his best if you do speak to him.