Finally, I've been able to put my focus where it should have been for many years now, and that's on getting my husband here to the states from Romania!!!! YAY!!

Life has thrown many twists and turns into the mix. Many times we have started the process only to be stalled by something along the way. Well, NO MORE! We are more determined than ever to make this our defining year!

With the advent of some serious infusion of money, We are now able to go full bore to realize our dream of our life together.

There is finally excitement in my heart, a kind of peace now filtering in that I haven't felt in a long long time. Our love has never waned, but our hopes have been dashed at times. Long distance romance is a most difficult thing to live through at times. I don't ever wish the pain on anyone.

I do not regret these years of being apart. I truly believe that all good things come to pass in their own time. Now is finally our time!

We have endured so much over the past 4 years. Our anniversary is coming up on the 30th of this month. We have yet to spend one anniversary together, one holiday together. The first year we were together we celebrated his birthday. Since then, nothing. Sending e-cards and snail mail is great, but it just doesn't cut it anymore. Once a week phone calls for 10 minutes or so, just don't cut it anymore.

I look forward to taking my last flight alone to Romania at the end of this summer. I will stay there with my beloved until he has his next interview at the Embassy. I will attend the interview with him and show that we are real people, that we have real love, that we only want to live our life in peace together. I can't wait to travel with my beloved and see the beautiful countryside of his land, enjoy the delicious food, take part in the grand scheme of a wonderful country with so much to offer. I can't wait to be in his arms, listening to him breath, feeling his heart beat next to mine again. To look into his eyes and see his soul, the soul that touched me so long ago. The soul that sang to me with promises of what love, life and passion are all about. To see and touch the face of the man who has brought out the true woman in me...the one I always knew was there but could never quite find until my soulmate touched me. Then, together, we will board a plane to come home.........*sigh*

I'm sorry if this is all sappy and lovestruck. I just can't hold it in anymore. I feel my heart bursting with so much love, respect, appreciation, and I just can't keep it to myself anymore.

So, plans have been made. Not engraved in stone just yet, but enough so there is hope......the one thing everyone needs in life to continue our journey. It will take a few months for this to all come about, but heck, whats another few months after years of being apart?? I can do this, I know I can do this! Please help me do this!!!! LOL

Thanks for listening to me rant here. I just needed to say it and get it out in the open so it seems more real.

J