I decided on an early night, no distractions, no Psych Central, all the good sleep hygeine stuff that guarantees a visit from the sandman. Well it is 1:45am and I'm wide awake. I've been too cold, too hot, mind racing, mind empty of anything, tried to picture nice stuff and failed. I keep coming around to the fact that I screwed up, all this mess is me and it is too late now to expect anything different. Even when I pushed these thoughts aside I couldn't sleep because of pains in my feet and ankles. So here I am, wide awake and anxious about how I will get through a day of work tomorrow when I am so very tired. I do so wish there was an escape, I can't be bothered to work out the trigger code so I'd best not say more