Yes. I have really bad luck with therapists. I can never find one that I like. I've pretty much given up on therapists.
During my last severe depression episode I went to see a therapist. I was having all these awful intrusive thoughts about hurting myself (like cutting my arms with knives, etc.), and she actually had me demonstrate what I was thinking about doing (like pretend I was holding a knife and slide it down my arm!). I left feeling horrible!
This last one I was seeing always made me feel really angry. During our last (and final) appointment I wanted to slap her in the face. She was all talking about how my anger was mania and that I wasn't stable and blah blah blah, and I was unwilling to change, and bipolar this and bipolar that. I had JUST GOTTEN OUT OF THE HOSPITAL! I have enormous medical bills. I was still angry about the entire situation because it was involuntary. It was my first psychotic episode. OF COURSE I'm going to be angry. I think that's normal. She made me feel like a label! I can have normal human emotions that aren't related to bipolar-ism.
I'm getting all pissed off thinking about her. Lol!
Anyway, maybe you're just not clicking with your therapist or something. Good luck!
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