Hi J,
I know how hard it is to communicate to the ones you love because I have done it my entire life. I can tell you this, I am learning to communicate better and it has made my current relationship stronger. My fiance is so at peace with himself and has so much confidence in himself. When I tell him how I'm feeling, he gives his insight and overall, it really does help.
You are not a burden. Your kids and your husband need you and they love you even though it might not be apparent at times.
I go to therapy but honestly, I come to these forums and read other peoples stories and it makes me feel better to know I'm not the only one that has the types of feelings I have. I find this place an excellent source of support!
You have my support through your difficult time! Take care!