Hi,

I've written here some about the T I've been seeing the last few months. I've found it to be a confusing working relationship on various levels. I see him again tomorrow, and I think it may be our last session.

We talked about stopping earlier, but we said we'd keep meeting through the end of July. To me, that meant we'd both keep trying hard and see if the working relationship could be improved. But every session, or every other session, my T says that he thinks it may not work out, or he isn't comfortable with it, or I should still continue to look for other counselors....something on that order. We met yesterday, and he did so again. I'm finding the whole situation confusing. Even if we kept meeting until the end of July, it seems so tenuous. One week, he will say that he is planning on working with me throughout the process, and ready to listen over the long term, the next week he is speaking of quitting. One week, he says we should meet frequently, then the next week he says we should meet once a week or less. He goes back and forth, and is unpredictable. I find this really scary, and incredibly confusing.

Maybe it is just time to call it quits. I really don't know what the next step would be at this point. But I don't think this is working. I find it hard to discuss much in this context. I don't know if it is just me, or this might be hard for somebody else also, but I'm finding this really bewildering. If I were going to be in counseling, I would want something more...well....reliable? Somebody whose views and approach weren't changing on a weekly or moment-by-moment basis. On the other hand, this is hard, because I don't have another idea at the moment, and I"m not even sure I want to try again.

Thanks for listening.

Take care,
ErinBear