Inny!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much!!!! Wow its like you were inside my mind. You're absolutely right about everything!

I've been feeling selfish because I miss the fire and the passion, but its just converted into a loving mature relationship....its not the honeymoon phase has necessarily ended, its just evolved. And thats what I needed to see.

I would get so mad at boyfriends in the past who wanted to have sex all the time. I see now that yeah, sex was all there was because the relationship was dead. But in this case, the relationship is so alive....it doesn't need sex all the time. I'm beginning to see that!

I guess because I'm finally enjoying it these days, I can't get enough. Making up for lost times of bad sex in the past lol. But I see now that he gives me so much more than great sex, he gives me love and security.

We talked a little about it last night. I joked that my doctor ordered nightly sex for pain relief (it really is healing for me). He said nightly???? He went on to say that sometimes he's just too tired, after I asked him if he'd be annoyed if I jumped him. He said I need to gauge how tired he is from work. My first thought was, well you weren't too tired in the beginning!!! But the adrenaline of a new relationship played a part I'm sure.

I'm just growing so much in this relationship. I'm experiencing what it is to have a healthy mature relationship, so anything that doesn't go the way I think it should sends me into disappointment.

Expectations are killer lol. I need to just let it be....and enjoy what it is, which is wonderful.

He's taking me on vacation in July.....he has a work conference in northern AZ and I get to go with him and chill at the resort. I can't wait!!!!

Anyway, Bebop, Inny, thank you both so much for your replies. You've really helped me a lot!!!!!