Oh, I have another positive thing to add.

Before I got help I was a mess, drinking, making stupid decisions, etc., and I felt really bad. But then I realized I'd been sick for a very long time and was able to forgive myself for a lot of things.

I did have trouble because of the two extreme sides of my personality, and it took me a long time to kind of fit the two together and figure out who I was because I felt so conflicted (if that makes any sense).