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Old Mar 26, 2015, 02:19 PM
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Delurking briefly....

T session today was pretty uncomfortable. I'm currently researching the concept of fluid gender identity. Which feels like a very useful concept but I don't know how much it actually applies to me, and if so, how much is caused by me growing up being a daughter instead of the wished-for son, or by me passing as a boy for several years as a preteen (which I still haven't told T about), or by me being very unfeminine both in terms of looks and interests, or by the undeniable fact that I am simply very unattractive, to people of either (or any) gender, or by more personal things that I won't bore you with. It probably doesn't matter what causes it, and it's never going to be possible to see what is cause and what is effect, but I don't know what to do with this new, potential, way of thinking about myself. Not that it would or could change anything in how I live, so it probably doesn't matter anyway. But it makes me a bit uncomfortable to sit on these thoughts all the same - not because I have a problem with the notion of non-binary gender, but simply because it's strange and unfamiliar for me to think of myself in those terms. And T is on his Easter break next week, so I'll have to sit on this without discussing it until the 7th.
Mast, I'm crazy busy the next several hours, but I'm going to come back to this post later tonight once I get home. I've been thinking about gender lately as well and am definitely interested in throwing some ideas out there for you all to dissect.