At this very moment, I don't know if I fit in a whole personality disorder.
I know I always found hard to be with people bc of my feeling of inadequency (I always felt the outsider). You never will see me in a group of people unless I have no way out, in that case, I try to do the very best to be unnoticed. That is: avoidance.

If I look at the past I always could live bc I have someone beside me. Someone I layed on. And I try to look for excuses for my behaviours and others' ones. Dependency.

I can ideolized people in my life and being terrible disappointed by them. You know, noone can fix to an idea. Borderline.

So, much to work on here. But, it doesn't matter. I already lived with it for many years and I'm not gonna put my hands down now.