i've been on ssd before, and it discontinued when i got married. it sucks when my own bills put a drain on my hubby, but i'm grateful to have him in my life because we have a really good relationship. yeah, i know the hoops all too well. yes, people can be brutal about your disabilities and make you do things to prove that you're not faking them. it's ridiculous. i have not able to work for many years. i have chronic major depression myself, so even when it was managed well, i still have residual effects that medications cannot control. i've learned to live with them, and of course, did everything i could to get better with everything that i could get better with. anyway, you guys are not alone. not only do i have a mental disorder that began when i was 20, i a also have been deaf and half-blind all of my life. yeah, the people don't make the hoops any easier for me. honest. i know how hard this is. you do have a right to get the help that you need in any way and not have to go through so much crap to get it. sometimes, you have to fight hard when you can. when you can't, just go with the flow as best as you can. i know there are days that all you can do is to go to the bathroom. i have those days plenty myself for a long time. i hope things get better and go well for you.