you're never alone. you always have us here in the net (psych central, respectfully). i'm sure your hubby is wondering about you and is hoping that you tell what's going on with you. a relationship cannot survive without the communication. i hope your hubby would be understanding about your depression. i've told my hubby since we began dating about my depression. and when my medication quit working on me a year and a half ago, my hubby went online and educated himself further about what depression can do to a person. and, he's been very understanding. i'm not saying that communication cures all in a relationship, i'm just saying that since he knows what's going on and has educated himself about my illness, he's been amazing. it can't be easy for him, but we have so much love for each other that he's willing to do whatever it takes to help me get better. i don't hold many secrets from him, either, and that helps me a lot. i hope i'm making sense.