Pdoc was really nice to me. This was only my 3rd time seeing her, but she said she already sees an improvement in me since my T left. She also told me that I definitely have BPD, but I am nothing like her other clients with it. She complimented me on how well I'm coping, how good I am at boundaries, and how smart and aware I am. If felt good to be recognized for my positives.

I'm really excited about Latuda. She increased the dosage. She said it should eliminate my SI urges and SUI ideation. That would be awesome! Almost 20 years suffering from it daily and it could be gone! I almost wouldn't need therapy...almost

Now I'm just waiting for therapy appt. Super nervous. I got here too early. But better early than late. I try to make the best first impression possible. Then again, I'm always early to appts.

My fiance is pacing around outside talking to coworkers...lol. He can't sit still when on the phone.

It's really nice here. It's up on a hill and you get a cool ocean breeze. There's a ton of eucalyptus trees, so the air smells of them. And there's a wall so you won't accidentally drive off the cliff! (My T's building only had a small wood post type fence...I actually saw someone once hanging off the edge.)

My poor puppy is antsy. She wants to play

25mins till I go up...