sheesh I didn't even answer your question!

I don't work, being permanently, totally disabled. I still go to physical therapy 3x a week, and see a PTSD expert... pain and stress management psychologist 3x a week... so that takes up time.... and wipes me out for those days...

the "days off" as I call them, well, I have to do sets of stretches that take me another hour to recover from...

I have to choose what I will do with any energy I might have left... I don't cook... and if I eat, it's usually once a day at a restaurant (but I haven't been able to do that for weeks)

I have a service dog that requires attention! food, water, brushing, lovin... heheheh etc and he demands more if he doesn't get enough!

I do try and volunteer... because of my previous abilities, I have a "high" position which doesn't require me to do anything day in and day out... which I just couldn't do anyway. I'm not sure how well I'm doing this anyway so... But if something is coming up, I "bank" what energy I can (no anything else: laundry, phone calling, bill paying etc) take extra medication to help with the pain and the brain fog from pain... and push myself to "do" the event... still on a good day I only get maybe 4 hours of functionality total.

I totally understand your comment about good ppl dying every day and here I am: taking up space. I think Ihave said that in therapy many many times. I am learning to deal with PTSD along with the physical problems from my accident (work.) I am learning to be patient with myself, yet work hard on some important issues ( I am disabled, I do the best I can, some days the best I can do is rest and shut the world out.)

Does this help you at all?