I'm not sure if I'm exactly depressed, but I don't feel completely stable either. That doesn't make much sense, but it's the only way I can really describe my mental state. Things could be worse, I know that, so I'm not complaining. I'm just in this weird in-between place I guess. Maybe this is as good as it gets.

So, my ups today: I went for a walk with my coworker, marking 3 days in a row. And today I went farther than I had before. So that was good. I also had lunch with my mom, and I felt like I was rather productive at work.

Downs: Throughout it all, I feel disconnected. And I've felt that way for a while. I'm not sure what it means, but I don't think it's good. I just feel like I'm not here. Like nothing really matters.