^ what he said ^

Oh yeah I understand. I know how it is to be disappointed over and over and over again so that you quit hoping at all because you're so tired of being disappointed!

It takes a strong, consistent T to help you... I don't hope yet (depression) but I don't wait for the other shoe to fall like I used to. I guess this is progress.

Yeah, depression speaks through us... and like fools, we listen! We have usually had so much negative said to us, we begin saying it to ourselves too... I'll repeat some of what my T tells me, in my words: you have to work hard, work your butt off on reframing what we are thinking! We have to say to ourselves, write it down often whatever, that we are worthy, we deserve to feel better and will, we will get through this... we can do this etc etc to counteract all the negative things our depression (and in my case, insurance company!) tells us.