I can't relate much to your situation. I have different issues. But I can sure say NO it's not normal and this has to stop in a way or another. I understand that victims of abuse usually feel guilty, angry at themselves. But I know that this is exactly what abuse does to the victim. They feel unworthy and deserve what happened for them. If you said, that you don't have any anger feelings towards them nor yourself, I would probably say that this may be considered as a good thing. But having all the negative feelings directed at yourself is simply wrong. You are not guilty. You are not responsible. You don't deserve what happened to you. You are a unique worthy human being. You don't deserve to be treated in that way. Please learn how to forgive and love yourself. If this is difficult, please seek help.
Stay Strong!

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