I'm 50. I avoided steady treatment for over 30 years. When I read: 'crazy things you did while manic' I mostly think: Amateurs. I have seriously acted weird at times with this disorder.

After I was fired from 1 job to many, and had to face and accept my disorder I began to see how 'weird' I can be. Now more then ever I want to seem normal when I go out.

Today I am manic. manic, manic. Only 3 hours of sleep, and if anyone noticed by how many posts I responded to today, I am opinionated, god complex/ smarter then everyone - over confident and bit grouchy which comes with the impatience of being so dominant feeling. In 1/2 hourish I have to go into public and go shopping, plus buy presents for a couple kids I don't know that well.

I want to seem normal, and I really have little idea what that is. I want to be nice. Patient - basically everything I am not actually feelings. I also have gotten to the age point (earlier then some) that I don't want to change for anyone.

Please offer clear specific points and how to's- QUICK!

LOL!~ <3 TO ALL. ("help + mew", says the kitten - "roar, outa my way", says the tiger)